well i have signed up into the navy and i am not going to let myself talk myself out of going...i honestly think this is the only good thing i will be able to achieve in my life...i have no talent for anything and i dont really have any friends where i am so im just a big loser with absolutely no future...and i believe the navy will help me to make myself into someone with a future...


on a different note i am sick again...i hope i dont get pneumonia again...im supposed to go horseback riding today!!! its been 10 years since i have been on a horse...and even then i didnt really get to ride someone led it around....IM SO EXCITED!!! but i guess it makes sense, today is so karmatically correct its scary...im miserably sick and i look like dootie but i get to hang out with a guy who likes me no matter what i look like and i get to ride horses!!!


and the bad thing about being sick...is not being able to go to the doctor because i have no insurance...it sucks